I often find myself wondering about how long it takes certain people to realize things. Is it instantaneous subconsciously? Or does it genuinely take a specific amount of time for them to see how things are going to be? It’s a rhetorical question, in essence, but I really do think that we can garner some sort of answer out if we analyze some things.
So, as I discussed in my previous, non-server related post, it took me a good seventeen years to realize that if I want something to happen, I need to make the move, not sit around on my laurels to ‘wait and see’. And as such, today I think I made a move, but not in the general sense of the term. To be frank, I made a move by not making a move at all. “How is that possible?” you may ask. Well, it’s quite simple really.
You see, this situation I’ve been in since late April has really been childish, I won’t admit. The whole concept of the “Let’s just be friends.” and “No, wait, I like you.” has really led me to this point. My friends, as well as her friends (in case you don’t know what I am talking about, read the earlier article) have been saying that I should make a move to let her know that I’m interested… until I realized that, truly, I wasn’t interested. You may think that I am crazy, but to be honest, she’s just not the person that I find myself really connecting with. Some people said to try it out and see, but I’ve decided that I never really ‘liked’ her in the sense of the word. There is no doubt that we make pretty good friends, but as for a relationship, I don’t see it happening.
So, what happens from here on out? Honestly, I have no clue. I think she’s given up on me (for lack of a better term), which is a good thing, but, alas, I do feel bad. That being said, I have plans. What, specifically? Well, let’s just say it involves ‘A’, my birthday party, and a long chat about how long it’s really been.